Be grateful always

Little cringe and self conscious as a few people walked past as I was recording. But my message is be grateful of all the opportunities you get to travel. I was talking to a older lady on the bus here. She was 80 the first time she was allowed to go out of her village!! She said when her husband was alive he would dictate where she could go who she could go with and how long she could be out for. She’s now in her 90s and the furthest she’s ever travelled is 20 minutes on a train!! We went for a cup of tea and I told her about the places I’ve been and where I would like to go. She told me to tell at least one girl I know to travel far and wide whilst they have the opportunity. I promised her I would. So please everyone be grateful for the opportunities xxxxx​


Do not settle. 

I’ve been at my new job for about 9 weeks now. My manager was asking me yesterday how I was finding it. And honestly? I do really enjoy it. There’s been a few times I’ve had a wobble or it’s been ridiculously frustrating. But as a whole I love it. 

She then joked give it a few more months. And I replied “oh as soon as I don’t enjoy it I will leave. I only do things I enjoy. ”

Her puzzled expression is one I see over and over. I know too many people that work 9-5’s that they hate with abundance. Their lives a count down to a Friday evening. To me, that’s an insane way to live. I would much rather keep looking for something that suits me. 

I’m 26 and this is job 30? Maybe 31. Definitely more than 27. 

Do I feel bad or guilty for wasting opportunities? Not one bit. My happiness is much more important 

Wanderlust and a wandering heart. 

It’s always been my intention to travel. I’ve always made excuses. No money. Don’t drive. Don’t speak the language. Bleh bleh bleh. Excuses excuses. 
But now I have set a target date. I will go once I have graduated from uni. I have inquired about potential jobs. I will go for it. 

I need to. I have the resources for me to live the life I truly want. There are too many people who are barely surviving. I am aware I am extremely provelidged. I have a house, family good friends, good health and a really good education. I’m sure I will be able to make use of these on my travels. All I know it’s too much to waste. 
Tynemouth beach. 

I don’t care if you think I’m selfish 

Today an acquaintance (at most) called me really selfish. Why? Because I turned down a offer to go to a place I had zero interest in going. I couldn’t of gone anyway as I had a uni lecture and I want to spend some time studying. 

But the point was I didn’t want to. It wasn’t some where that interested me and well I didn’t want to. Their response was that I was selfish. 

Am I? I didn’t stop them from going. Should I do something I don’t enjoy just to appease another? In some situations there be a reason to do so. However, I feel that I should be able to say no. I don’t see why I should be made to do things that would not bring enjoyment to my day. I do put myself first in a lot of situations because at the end of the day self care is a must. 

Admittedly this has not always been the case. Once upon a time I would agree to absolutely everything. To the point where I was spending money I didn’t have and triple booking and running myself into the ground trying to keep up with everyone. And I broke. I’ve learnt that it’s just not feasible. It’s ok to say no. And I understand if you say no too. 

All the small things. 

Today I feel so happy and just in tune with life. I know it sounds so soppy, but I’m trying to take time out to appreciate the things that make me smile but not necessarily would be noted for more than a fleeting moment. 

One of these was spotting some rabbits in a field on the way to work. Usually on the trip I’d be on my phone or trying to nap. But a few days ago I was sitting with an elderly couple. I had moved seats so they could sit facing forward and I sat backwards. It was nothing to me but meant a lot to them as she got really motion sick if she didn’t face the way she was going. Anyway we got talking and they started pointing out the different fields and different wildlife. We saw herons, rabbits, badger and and a few foxes. And they were beautiful. Seeing them today made me smile because sometimes your heart needs the most innocent of pleasures.